LEZLEE

Inaway ako ni Ryan. O ako ang nang-away sa kanya?

Basta nag-away kami dahil sa pagkahilig niyang magbasketball at ang pagkaselfish ko.

 

Mahirap kapag may iniinda kang sakit ... at gusto mong makiusap na kahit ngayong linggo lang ipagpaliban muna niya ang pagbabasketball upang samahan ako.

Mahirap kapag iba ang mga salitang lumabas sa bibig mo kesa sa mga salitang nginungusap ng puso.

Isa kaya itong resulta ng pagkawala ng isang ngipin (kahapon nga pala nangyari ang pagbunot ng ngipin ko - kaya masama ang pakiramdam ko ngayon).

 

Sa ngayon, ewan ko. Hindi muna ako uuwi.

 

Hay...

 

Sakit pa din ng bibig ko.

Pero mas masakit ang puso ko.

 

 

 

The only thing that can shut me up ... is a terrible week-long toothache.

And the tooth fairy is about to take it out this Saturday, Sept 12 (after 21 antibiotic capsules).

I wish she will give me a new tooth that does not cost P10,500 per crown.

 

 

SHERYL CROW

 

I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

 

Funny, for several years I have been trying to build walls to make my place secure, safe and hurt-free.  

Sabi ko pa, I will never let anybody get thru that wall. They can come close, but definitely not close enough to see right thru.

Funny, because after several years of building, I finally get tired.

Even funnier, I find myself alone, suffocated, breathing the same air that comes from my own lungs.

 

And I am tired.

Even too tired to climb the wall to get to the other side.

 

Now, I am starting to break the wall down. I guess, I am still too tired.

Yeah, it was a hurt-free journey, but in the end, I do not feel anything at all.

Maybe  I need a hand. It is easier to break down a wall with another set of hands. At the very least, a hand feels warmer than the cemented wall.

 

 

 

 

Life list number 26 - checked.

 

Now, I can forget about it.

And start grasping for more air.